NOTW: Looking Ahead

I’ve picked up a bad habit in food service. I have a tendency to look at the ground when walking. Not so much because I am trying to avoid eye contact with people or that I have a low self esteem. No, I developed this habit because I had to spot any floor hazards when walking around in a restaurant. Floor hazards like spatulas, knives, feet, children, anything that could trip me up during rush hour. There is a certain sort of dance that has to be preformed when working in a restaurant, and any miss step could spell disaster.

The thing is, my habit of floor watching didn’t stop at work. I found myself applying it in everyday life. Which I was aware of, but didn’t particularly find a problem in. When I did it, I could see everything I needed to know to get from one place to the next safely. Besides, it’s not like my head was fixed towards the ground or anything, just my eyes.

Recently I went on a walk in the park. It was a beautiful day and autumn was in full swing. Shades of yellow and red coated the trail from the trickling trees over head. I took my time taking it all in, watching the leaves as they gracefully fluttered in the wind.

I felt a sort of wonder in it all, and as time went on, almost care free. Before I knew it, I was at the end of the trail. ‘Wait, what? But I didn’t pass the large crack in the trail at the second mile mark yet, or the pot hole that recently got repaved.’ I thought. Then I realized something, I had been so fascinated by the scenery, I hadn’t even noticed were I was going.

My confusion was quickly over come with concern. ‘What all have I been missing?’ I wondered

‘With being so caught on efficiency, what did I miss along the way?’

Though my technique worked, and I always knew where I was going, I was missing everything note worthy along the way. The sights, colors, and people were all lost on me because I was so fixated on getting from point A to B as efficiently as possible.

This week, I encourage you guys to being more open to your surroundings. Really opening your eyes and living in the now, instead of just where you want to be. There is, after all, a whole world out there.

Thank you guys for joining me in this week’s NOTW (Notes on the Wall). What’s something that has been inspiring you or even getting you through this week? Feel free to share in the comments or hit me up on twitter (@PunkMusical)!

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NOTW: Something is Better Than Nothing

“Something is better than nothing” What a cop out. Because that phrase implies you are settling for something less that the ideal, less than best. Which seems stupid to me, for you see;

I am a junkie for perfection.

I don’t necessarily always seek perfection in circumstance or in the people around me, but in exclusively myself. I am always trying to find ways to stand out from the crowd and I found that, being a perfect person, would do that. If I am ever preforming less than optimally, then, in my mind, I’m a failure. Even if the product of my labor is average or meets expectations, it’s still not good enough, because I know it can be better.

This is mind set rings especially true in my work (being my music or this blog). From the beginning I have been near obsessed with trying to make THE best content. Which is a good goal, but sometimes a lofty expectation to put on ones self. Especially when first starting out.

You know the funny thing about being a perfectionist? Is that you never win. Simply because there is no such thing as perfect in this world. There is always something more that can be done, something to overcome, something to learn. We may progress forward, but we never really ‘arrive’.

The perfectionist syndrome really seems to start when we start a new project, one that we may feel particularly passionate about.

For example, when I started this blog. I had never blogged or done anything quite like it before. I had known about free blogging site, but I wanted to be taken seriously! Not be some other schmuck on the internet! So I did hours of research on domains, RRS, web hosting, and general blogging. Then, equipped with my new knowledge, I found a decent web host, put in my information, then got hit with the price tag. It was a few hundred dollars more then I expected.

I was a little devastated. I felt like a failure before I had even started. Then it occurred to me, that it wasn’t that I was a failure, I was just expecting way to much of myself to start with. You don’t expect when a baby is first born to be able to talk, or a person to preform heart surgery after reading one medical book. It is all about taking the first step, then continuing to walk, then run, then fly, but first you need to crawl.

That is why it is so important to just put something out there, anything, that will progress you forward. Because If you just fixate on making something perfect every time, you are never going to pass the planning stage. Many times, that means settling for less than perfect.

These days, I am just a another schmuck on the internet. However I am a schmuck that works hard to progress everyday, and sometimes that involves being less than perfect.

How about you? What is something that has inspired you this week or that you have been wrestling with? Maybe something you are thankful for? If you feel like sharing, hit me up on Twitter (@PunkMusical) and we’ll talk about it!

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NOTW: Creatives

Creative people are insane.

Like, legitimately.

I am actually fairly certain, that all of us creative types either belong, or have once belonged, to some sort of loony farm. We all just, somehow, managed to escape our, totally justified, confinement from society. Maybe we escaped using a smuggled plastic spoon, that we shaped into Abraham Lincoln’s head, and pick the lock to our cell with it. Not to escape, but so that we could go find a different room that had better acoustics for our ukulele practice. Then, one of the guards discovered us, and was so impressed by our mad skills to shred that tiny guitar, released us so we could unleash our madness upon the world.

What a mistake he made.

This week I have discovered how grateful I am for my fellow, crazy ass, right brained people out there. I am talking about the people who can never just see something and accept the way it is. Rather, they take it all apart, throw it in a cup, shake it, then throw it at the wall to see what sticks.

The sort of people when looking at a sky scraper, think how cool it would look upside down, like a stalactite in a cave.

The sort of people that hear a death metal song, then transpose it to work on a xylophone.

I am talking about the sort of of people who decide to throw on a wedding dress, cover themselves in white makeup, then find a place to stand in the park. Only so that they can observe how people react.

If you are one of these people, know that you are doing this world a service. You are adding a bit of kayos, in what would otherwise, be a very boring existence. If you are not one of these types and more align yourself with our left brained counterparts, know that you are doing this world a service. You add much need balance to this world, and a bit of ‘actually getting shit done’. Because I assure you, without you, we would just have a bunch of very colorfully dressed people standing around calculator, all asking “What do?”.

So, if your left brained, right brained, or even have a whole brain, what are you thankful for this week? How about something that you have recently come across that inspires you? If your feeling social, feel free to leave a comment or hit me up on twitter (@PunkMusical). We’ll talk about this potato chip I found that looks a lot like Sigmund Freud.

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NOTW: Anya

What up my sexy people, and welcome back to another installment of ‘Notes on the Wall’!

I hope you have had a glorious week thus far, and if not, then you are almost half way through it already!

This week’s NOTW is going to be a completely over done cliche, so cliche in fact it already has an entire day of the year dedicated to it.

This week I have discovered (more like re-learned honestly) how thankful I am for my Mom. Now as I write this, of course my inner angst driven teen is trying to rein me in. Telling me that ‘No! We must be against Mom so we can show her that we don’t need her! Down with the machine!’

Ok, while it is true that my Mom has not always been totally on board with my whole rockstar shtick, that was only because she was afraid to find her son dead in a ditch somewhere. And, to her credit, she has really started to get used to the idea of me chasing after my passions. Could be because she sees that, after all this time, this whole music kick really isn’t going to go away, or it’s that she really is starting to believe in me.

My new found thankfulness also stems from a change in my own perspective. Being a parent is a hard, thankless job. You go through all kinds of heartache for eighteen years raising this kid, feeding them, cleaning them, taking their stupid asses to school, putting a roof over their head. All that just for them to tell you at the end of it, that of course they had to do it, it’s their job.

Which is true, but a ‘thank you’ is still appreciated.

I even now, sometimes struggle with my Mom and some of the choices she has made. She has made mistakes, some pretty stupid. But you know what, so have I. So who am I to judge? She is a human just like I am, and needs love, forgiveness and compassion just like I do.

Like I said, this week is a pretty standard thank you to an obvious choice, but you know, sometimes the obvious choice the best choice, and often the one that needs to hear it the most.

So if your reading this Anya, or any Mom out there who may have a shit head son like I was, let me just say Thank You. Thanks for putting up with us and sticking with us through the years. From the poopie diapers to the car joy rides. (Sorry Anya, but I mean, did you really think I was just going to park your car for you?)

So what are you guys thankful for this week? What’s something that you are looking forward to? Maybe even something that has inspired you?

If you feel like sharing, feel free to leave a comment below or hit me up on Twitter! (@PunkMusical)

As always, have a fantastic week and I will see you in the next NOTW, or in your dreams. Which ever comes first.

(P.S. Anya means mother in Hungarian. Considered yourself cultured.)

(P.S.S. Go call your Mom and tell her shes fabulous)

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NOTW: This one pains me to admit…

…and, I mean, it really does.

But before we get to that, please allow me to welcome you to my second installment of Notes on the Wall! (NOTW for those of you keeping track at home) How much longer will I be keeping track of these entries? For as long as it sounds cool to me!

I hope you all had a wonderful conclusion to the end of your week last week. Maybe, you even have even found a few things that motivate you, or are just straight up thankful for.

Today I am going to share with you something that I am both, very thankful to have and causes me to physically cringe at it’s very thought!

My delivery job.

Yep, I am honestly very blessed to have it.

Getting mixed signals yet?

I hate my job. Like. Hate it. I like really, really just think it’s plain icky. However, I am one of the most blessed people in the world because of it.

Stumped yet?

I am grateful for this job because, though it’s a crappy side job, it’s a side job that has allowed me to have a roof over my head and food to eat everyday. Truthfully, at the end of the day, if your side job is at least doing that for you, then it is a success.

Now, I am not going to give a speech about how you should always be ecstatic to walk through the doors of your particular crap hole every day. What I will tell you, though, is that you could be a lot worse off.

As of right now there are five percent of Americans who don’t get a job to complain about. Five percent who have much bigger problems then having to get up early for the morning shift. There a group of people, just like you and I, who aren’t sure where their next meal will come from or where they might sleep tonight.

It is also worthy of mention, that it’s because of this crappy side job that I get to do this. It’s what funds the electricity to use this computer and to purchase the needed equipment and software for this expanding project.

I won’t lie to you, I greatly look forward to the day that I get to throw my resignation in the general manager’s face, along with a pair of middle fingers. But right now, I am just glad I have a job to complain about.

So what are you guys, maybe even begrudgingly, thankful for? Or even something that maybe inspiring you this week? Please feel free to share in the comments or, if you are feeling adventurous, shoot me a message on twitter (@punkmusical) about it!

Have a fantastic week!

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NOTW: Un-certainty is the only certainty

Wait a minute. . . it’s not Saturday. Why is there a new post? What is this madness?!

That’s right boys and girls! We are doing something different this week! May I be the first one to welcome you to a new segment here on the Punk Musical, ‘Notes on the wall’!

“Notes on the wall? What does that even mean?!” I hear you asking. Well for an explanation, I will need to give a little background.

A few months ago, when the not-so-metiphorical shit hit the oh-so-literal fan, I was feeling pretty depressed and lost (for additional background check out the ‘About the Punk’ page). So I decided to do the most cliche thing I could think and wrote myself a letter. A letter about all the good things in my life, and about how generally awesome I was.

Except that I was to lazy to actually even write a whole letter, so I compromised with sticky notes. Sticky notes that I put on a wall adjacent to my bed so that they where in view throughout the entire room.

The thing was though, I was only planning to do a couple of them. Just to be visual reminders that things will get better and I will get out of my slump.

Here’s the thing though, I am up to like twenty five now and my wall is covered. Not only that, but I have them color coded depending on the subject!

I can’t really explain why I kept doing it. I guess it was because I just wanted to try to keep account of all the good in my life, and how it should be cherished.

So I had the realization the other week that I didn’t want to just keep that to myself. I wanted to share it with you guys! Just a few things that either, I have learned to been thankful for this week or has inspired me.

This week I discovered how thankful I am for the uncertain.

Sounds weird right? If someone would have gone back in time and told me that, I would have first asked how they managed that whole time travel thing, and then asked about that whole ‘thankful for the uncertain’ thing to. I guess.

The reason the uncertain particularly appeals to me right now is because, up to a few month ago, I could have probably told you exactly what my life my have look like ten years from them. I was on a steady track up management within the company, and probably would have eventually landed some sort of general manager position.

Sounds . . . fun

But now, I couldn’t tell you where I would be two months from now, let alone ten years. While the uncertainty can be scary, it’s also liberating in a way. That anything can happen!

Who knows what tomorrow holds, could be a cake!

I challenge you guys to find something that your thankful for this week. Though there is always crap in this world, there is also always something to be thankful for. It could be from working that job you always wanted, or that you simply have another day of life.

So, what are you guys thankful for this week? Feel free to comment below with your answer or hit me up on twitter @punkmusical!

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